Wednesday, February 25, 2009
I pause and wonder~Am I doing the right thing?
It never occurred to me, what's wrong and what's right.
I never seriously took others' feelings into much consideration.
At the end of the day, it's my journey, my life.
We only get to live life this once.
By taking consideration other's feelings, At the expense of our own happiness,,
How right can that be?
Maybe it's selfish thinking.
Maybe this is what too much independence does.
Maybe it's just PMS.
Maybe I've seen too much of the ugly world.
To know that there are many out there just like me,
Selfishly thinking only for themselves.
If you compromise too much, you are just at the losing end.
It is such a fine line between kind-heartedness & being plain dumb
Monday, February 09, 2009
First ever time I got locked out and had to pay $80 to unlock the damn door!I shall treat it as a goodbye present. What an expensive present~ (to myself)!
And so, I called up and smsed a few of my friends while I was practically franctically banging and shouting.
It is amazing at how different people handled the situation differently.
I guess wisdom and steadiness comes with age. Really.
The older guys, gave totally different answers and were cool, calm and collected. Even managed to give me step by step instructions on what to do despite me whining and grumbling. I really felt calm and secure.
At the end of the day, no matter how tough a cookie I am, I am still a woman waiting for that man's touch and security. (think damsel in distress)
I love it when a man orders me around. (terms and conditions applies)
But thanks to all who came to my rescue, one way or another. I am really, sincerely thankful and glad of such wonderful bunch of friends who are there when needed!!!! *muacks*
yes i know the song is a tad un-juu.
but I'm dancing and singing to lady gaga's songs.
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Been pretty engrossed with Feng Shui stuffs recently. To the extent where I bought the Lilian Too book. And was further interested when my colleagues went on a Feng Shui shopping spree, spending hundreds.
Call me supertitious, but I do have a tendency to believe in such luck/energy. And I found it harmless to read about it, make minor changes to my workspace/my life. Afterall, how much harm can moving 5degrees of your computer cause?
Apparently, it is not so much on whether you buy these Feng Shui items, but more on your beliefs. It's one thing to read up and learn about these Feng Shui-ness, another to practise them.
I was tempted to buy all these small charms to enhance my luck and also to ward off bad, evil luck/forces. Googled and online shopped on what items "Rats" should buy, since it is said we will be affected by the Five Yellow.
Till I read about this "Buddha Amitabha’s Mantra Ring with Black Cord" in which I immediately felt uncomfortable with the Buddha-ness. Morever, I had to CHANT some chants 108 times a day to invoke blessings.
That was when it dawn upon me that I, as a "christian" should not be doing such stuffs! I know I havent been attending churches and reading and praying regularly. But I somehow still believe, and would like to categorize myself as a "christian".
Now I am in a dilemma as to go ahead with getting these charms.
Afterall, who doesn't want good luck? Who wouldn't want to be safe and happy, not only for themselves but for their loved ones?
I mean, if someone tells you that by jumping up and down 3 times a day would bring you good fortune and health. Would you?
And if someone tells you that getting out from the left side of the bed will cause misfortune to your family. Would you get off from the right?
To what extent do we draw this line?
On a seperate note, I am confused by some other "things".
It is hard to analyze people; be it work or personal.
Are there any easier way to read people's mind?
But then again, what fun is it if you can read through everyone's mind.
Guys are stupid.
How difficult is it for you guys to comprehend something simple as "Leave Me Alone"?
Explicitly spelt out "Leave Me Alone" at that!
Well, I guess first thing I gotta do tomorrow is to get a decent Bible and start reading.
Cf. Deut 18:10 ; Jer 29:8
Monday, February 02, 2009
Things have been good.
Too good in fact.
I feel uneasy when my life is too smooth-sailing.
It feels as if something bad will happen, and it all comes crashing down.
Am I being overly pessimistic?
- I bought my very first LV. (I love it very much!)
- I just signed a new lease for my new apartment room. (It was love at first sight!)
- My teeth is moving perfectly (or so I think). (Amazingly enough, my center gap has closed significantly!) --> However it feels as if my chin is protruding outer and outer.
- I am "getting back together" with Jo (JUST as friends).
- I have terminated my M1 contract and stick to Singtel iPhone. (I 'heart' my iPhone)
Things have been going too smoothly.
I have been getting whatever I wish for.
They say: When things come too easily, will go off easily.
That's what I'm afraid of.
But at the same time, I am thankful.
I guess this is just my emo Post-MS mood.
But really I am. I am thankful. So blessed that I don't even feel I need a guy!
Gosh, V day is here again!
The horror for all singles. So much so, that they termed it "friendship day".
I got a feeling Jo will ask me out, but nevertheless, my "Friendship Day" is free for balloting/invites!!!