ARGH~?!@#?!@#?!@?# FARK~!!!!!! SO SO SO VERY PISSED?~! STOOPID WASHING MACHINE~!!! NO~!!!!!!!!!! STOOPID PEOPLE WHO USE THE WASHING MACHINE LIKE DIRT~!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HELL~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WASHED, AND AS USUAL I WASH(RINSE) IT 2 TIMES. BUT FARKANATHAN~!!!!!!!!!!! NO USE AT ALL~!!!!! STOME IDIOT GO AND DIRTY THE WASHING MACHINE AND MY FREAKING CLEAN CLOTHES ARE DIRTY~! THERE ARE DIRTY FLAKES OF I-DUNNO-WHAT STUFF ON IT~! SO DISGUSTING~! ITS WORSE THAN EVEN BEFORE I WASHED IT~!!!1 SO FARKANATING~! EXAMS ARE ALREADY STRESSFUL ENOUGH AND YET I CANT HAVE NICE CLEAN CLOTHES FOR GOODNESS SAKE~!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS THIS~?!@#?!@ THE STOOPID FARKING PERSON~!~! WH0 WASHES DISGUSTING 1 YEAR LAUNDRY~!@#!@ I HOPE HE FAILS BADLY FOR HIS EXAM...GRRRRRRRR
I KNOW I SOUND DAMN VULGAR AND MEAN...BUT U TRY HAVING YOUR NICE CLEAN CLOTHES TORN AND DIRTIED AND SMELLY AFTER WASHING.....U WILL KNOW HOW I FARKING FEEL....I REALLY HATE DISGUSTING PEOPLE....
WHICH REMINDS ME, THE GUY BESIDE ME DURING EXAM WAS SNORTING~!@#!@#!@ GRRR...SO IRRITATING EACH TIME HE SNORTS~!@#!@#!@#!@# AND I MEAN REALLY A LOUD DISGUSTING SNORT~!#@@!#!@#~!
AND THE OTHER DAY, I SAW THIS GUY ( I THINK FROM CHINA ) WHO WAS DIGGING HIS NOSE IN PUBLIC~!!1 LIKE RIGHT INFRONT OF ME~!!! AND I LOOKED AT HIM...AND HE DINT EVEN BOTHER~!!!! NO SHAME~!
AND NUS PEOPLE ARE DAMN DAMN DISGUSTING AND DIRTY~!!! WHY MUST THEY USE THE TOILET LIKE SHIT~?! THEY PEE EVERYWHERE~!!! INCONSIDERATE FOOLS~!@#!@#!@#!@#!@
WHATS WRONG WITH THE WORLD~!!!!!!!!!!TO ALL THE DISGUSTING AND DIRTY PEOPLE OUT THERE, PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE~!~!!! U ARE SO OLD YET YOU DONT KNOW WHAT CLEANLINESS IS, WHAT IS BEING CONSIDERATE?~!?@# PLEASE PLEASE, TREAT IT AS I AM BEGGING YOU. BE CLEAN..
okies, maybe i am not all that clean, but at least i dont pee everywhere in the toilet, i dont go and stink up the washing machine, and neither do i leave dirty residue in the washing machine~!@#!@#!@#
sigh....today's paper...was pretty bad for me. it was do-able, but i was so nervous that i keep writing the wrong stuffs and keep cancelling...and my all that in written in my helpsheet, was just staring blankly at me...its not that i dunno how to do. i know, but its just ....i dunno..i remember feeling this way for one paper...sigh...so stressed that i just did nothing for the whole day....
i feel so dizzy lately. i think got some dizzy spells....im gonna sleep early tonight on my stinking bed....
i need chocolates....to cheer me up....chocolates makes me happy...i feel so deprived...hope i can get out of here soon..there are so many stuffs i wanna do, number one being rest and just slacking away. or sitting down and chatting with my friends, without the worries of not studying. cant even have a decent chat nowadays. exams and all.
how i wish i had enough money to travel around the world...i feel s envious when i see people posting nice photographs of nice scenary in nice countrys......i so so envy my sia friends....they look soo carefree and happy...sigh....i dont mind going alone.....it seems like a whole new experience..but of cos nice comapny would be better...any takers?
many things, many thoughts have been bugging me. sometimes i wonder why do i think so much?~! okie...it may seem like i am some thoughtless airhead who goes around screaming at everything i see...BUT OH OH OH NOOOO....u are sooooo wrong. many thoughts run deep in me. well, maybe not heavy thoughts like amy and her RnP thoughts....but yeah, thoughts and problems everyone encounter everyday.
uni life....somewhat different from what i expected it to be. life isnt all about studies, so why is everyone around me so stressed up, and thus stressing me in the process?? i remembering breaking down last during the exam period last sem...before the fluid mech paper...i just broke down, got so stressed~! so many stuffs, so little time....luckily ian clamed me down...in the end...got a B+ for it....so, moral of the story isno point breaking down~! but i dunno how to stay clam...dunno if im going break down again..
anyway, good luck for all the coming papers. and please let me say this....I FINISH ON THE 30TH APRIL~!!!!!!!!!!!yooooohoooo~!!!!!!!!!!! okie, for those who are stressed up studying, sorry if i made your day any lousier....
today aint the best day in my life....although i tried and tried to make it nice.... well, i only had a few hours of sleep before my darn design test and i was almost late. after test, i decided to give myself a nice treat. so i decided to go for my massage session...:D yeah...the massage was great~! but i prefer people with bigger hands massaging me...cos more comfortable... after massage, i wanted to go back home...guess what~! raining super heavily~!!! and after massage, you are not supposed to touch cold water for like 2hrs i think....darn....and the wind kept blowing rain at me.....darn.....my massage goes to waste... after that, i went back home~!!! gosh~! soooo happy to see mummy~!1 although as naggy as ever, her food was totally yummilicious~!! i give it 2 thumbs up~!!! and after eating, i just lied down..need not do dishes...unlike in hall...:( being nice mummy, she packed some nice side dishes for me to take back. i wanted her soup bad....but she dint make any...*sob*sob* guess i have to endure another 2 weeks before i can savour true good korean food...:( anyway, the kimchi is stinking up the refregerator....but i dont care~!!!!! yummy yummy~!!!! just rice and kimchi and kim(korean seaweed) and i am satisfied....:D stoopid washing machine had to spoil my day. now my shoulders ache again....maybe i should go for massage again....:D:D:D:D hahahaha....i love to pamper myself~!!!! okies...anyway, im folding my laundry.....so i gotta finish folding before going to bed....sigh..i miss home....hope exams will be over soon~!!!
oh yah...today, i was listening to my old MD songs......and I heard my ex's favourite songs....CHICAGO songs...hahaha....so sweet... still remember we both just lied in the bed and he sang "will you still love me for the rest of your life..." with the music playing in the background. it felt good and soooo lovey that up till today i still remember...hahaha...stoopid william...wonder what i saw in him....but i was so so so so innocent last time...cant stand myself~! muhahahaha....come to think of it, im sooooo cute~!!:P but nevertheless, chicago songs are soo nice....
stoopid com downloading OC sooooo slowly~!!! who has season 2?????? lend moi~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOOPID FREAKING WASHING MACHINE~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM GONNA KILL IT~!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT FREAKING TORE MY SKORTS~!GRRRRRRRRRRR............STOOPID STOOPID~!!!!! AND GUESS WHAT?~! SOME FREAKING IDIOT DINT CLEAR THE LAUNDRY AND MADE THE FREAKING MACHINE STINKY~!!!!! AND I UNKNOWINGLY PLACED MY CLOTHES IN, ONLY TO KEEP SMELLING THIS DARN SMELLY SMELL........GRRRRRRRRRRR~! AND GUESS WAT?~! JUST NOW SOME STOOPID IDIOT PRESS ON PAUSE WHILE MY CLOTHES ARE STILL IN WASHING AND I HAD TO FREAKING RESTART THE STOOPID DUMB WASHING MACHINE~!@#!@#!@#!@# THIS STOOPID IDIOT GUY KEEP LINGERING NEAR THE WASHING MACHINE~!!!! DUNNO WHAT HE DOING~!@#!@#!@#!@#!@#!@#!@ I HOPE HE FAILS HIS EXAM~!!! WAH LIEW~! WASTE MY TIME WALKING UP AND DOWN A THOUSAND TIMES LOH`!@#!@#!@#!@#!@ I AM VERY VERY PISSED AND ANGRY~!!!!!!!!!! ARGH~!!!!!!!!! NOW I GOTTA BUY NEW SKIRT/SHORTS~!!@#!@$#$!#@$!@#!@# grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dearest diary, feeling really sentimental lately, maybe its cos of all the lovey dovey ballads....listening to charlotte church's "it's the heart that matters most". nice song...
i know i told myself to be strong and to go on...i did, and i am doing it now. but looking back at my life, i feel an empty void. im turnin 21, but what have i done? what have i got? what have i achieved.
i know some people just get sick of my whinning and crying. but i heck.
*baH* i dunno what to write anymore. just lost it.
many stuffs i wish to say. but there are soo many personal and inner-most stuffs which i only feel comfortable telling my friends. so many unfamiliar wandering eyes here.
ever felt your heart really ache? i mean literally ache. i had that feeling many times. and today, i felt it again. okies, its not those health related problems...dont worry.
this entry is super rubbish. just my avenue for letting it out. how i wish i can scream it all out~! like go to the sea and scream and shout like mad~!!!!!!!! or just go to a ktv room and sing all i like~!!! or just go to a club and dance and scream my heart out~!! but i cant, im stuck in this dumb insect-infested room with 4 walls facing me. and exams is just 1 week away.
girls are real sentimental creatures. everything affects them. the weather, the song, the place, the everything~! or issit just me? i am super duper emotional.
dear anonymous, sigh, what can i say? i wonder and wonder why u would say those stuffs?? well, i guess there are 2 reasons for hating someone. number 1 being, i am better than u~! need i explain further? number 2, i am someone whom u wish to be, but u cant be. well, its soo obvious from you visiting my blog everyday~! why would you wanna visit my blog when u proclaim your hate for me? i wonder.....maybe u are sooo curious about MY LIFE or maybe you are looking for pointers on how to live your life like mine. whatever the case is....you are certainly welcomed to read it and hopefully learn something from it. and since i know who you are(i dont take cybercrime for nothing), u need not hide your identity. why would anyone be ashamed to be himself? oh right, u do hate being yourself..well, although i know you hate your life and everyone around, but there is no need for that. anyway, whatever the case is, try to relax and maybe you wont feel that much hate anymore... hmmm...maybe try yoga or for your case, try going to a church or for confession. u really need those. my prayers are with you...:)
dear diary.... i dunno what to write...just please help me get out of this mess...
stoopid moth...after a flying cockroach now, a flying moth? is my room so so so so so so dirty~?!@#!@ wth~ i cant be bothered.tonight im sleeping early, im gonna study hard at proper times from tomorrow.period. no more very late nights, no more slacking too much. anyone knows of a hypnosis which makes u just concentrate on studying? i seriously dont mind trying it...
OMG OMG OMG~!!!!!! let me tell you what freaking happened last night~!!!!!! a humongous, yes, i mean HUMONGOUS~!!! and guess what.....its can fugging fly~!!!!!!!!!! yes~!!!!! a fugging HUMONGOUS FLYING cockcroach~!!! in my small small room~! i so so so so so freaked out~! its no joke lohz~! it was super super digusting and scarey~!!!!!!!!! i immediately ran out of my room.......and at that moment, i was completely lost...i felt like crying.....what to do~?! so i went in my room again to try and shoo away the darn darn dirty disgusting insect....and guess what...i flew towards me~!!!! so again, i slammed my door and and ran away.... i called chichang to come up and help me.....he did, although he was scared of cockroaches....but brave heroic chichang entered my room...but that darn cocky disappeared..... so i thought, well, we thought it flew away... but i was still scared and dint dare to get back to my room. so this time, msged handsome nick if he has any insect killer, telling him that there is a huge flying cocky in my room....stoopid nick laughed...but said he will come by later to visit mr cockroach. so later he came and guess what...he found mr cockroach..but being the nick he had to say scarey things like if its flying, it means it is pregnant~!!! OMG~!!!PREGNANT~! baby cockroaches~!!!! then i felt so disgusted and scared~! but handsome heroic nick saved the day after screaming and running in and out for like 30 mins......we finally caught the damn damn cocky~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant believe wat a relief.....omg...its damn hard work when both of us are so scared of it......i practically did nothing other and screaming like mad at 1+/2+ am.....and also, inevitably tears rolled down....hahaha....girls mah....scared then cry lohz~! but thank you my hero nick, so so so so so so so so so so so thank you~!!!! later, we boiled the cocky....hahahaha....we just pour boiling water at it...and it died~! hahahahaha....being the kiasu me, i poured more hot water...just to make sure...:) hahahahahahaha thank you my hero...NICK.....~!!!!!! love ya so so so so much~!!!!!!!! everyone, nick is a super super superonic heroic, supercajafrajalistic guy~!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahaha.......i just love him to bits~!!!!!!!!!!
sorrie peeps....i have heard complaints that my blog hangs IE etc etc.......im trying to see whats wrong with my html code ( which i dunno what the hell) . please be patient. im new to this and setting up this nice blog template is a very huge new thing to me. so please please stop complaining lah~! i have no problems with it leh....must be your guys surfing too much porno which is corrupting your comp~!! muhahaha.....exams coming, so i guess i will see when i feel like correcting it...:P
today, was sick...yeah...cramps again... stayed in bed for like forever....till dinner time when my tummy started growling...so i took some pain killers and cooked myself some jap udon....well, not as nice as restuarants' undon, but still, it made me happy...nice warm soup warming up my tummy...:)
i bought this sunshine honey and oats WHITE bread. yeeks....taste horrible. i think i will stay with my wholemeal/softmeal. dunno why but i like it...:)
okies, anyone knows how to add music to the blog???? please teach me...:D:D confession: again, i treated someone for granted. this bad habit of mine. sorry. i miss my ex...he called on april fool's day....saying he is leaving for canada. that his dad got him citizenship there...i dunno how much of it is true. but i naively believed again. i guess i love to listen to lies....even thou i know they are lies... 2 years of lies....and i still dont learn my lesson.
this week, pretty bad week. or rather weekend....dont feel like talking about it...having the cramps now. yes, menstrational cramps. something guys (and some girls) would never understand. i hate this time of the month~! where all your pimples would start popping up due to hormonal changes. but after this whole thing, your face would be at its best....read it in some mag, but i remember them saying your face is at its best......darn, i forgot. haha...but i have to agree with them. your face complexion depends on hormones. well, at least for me.
and i do admit..i have pms. i get real grouchy and really aggitated even by the slightest thing. well, its something that is hard to control. but i try not to freak my friends out.
watching interview with a vampire...but its too black on my laptop. guess i gotta borrow the vcd from carol.
sigh...this month, im tight again. gotta start saving up.....darn....i still wanna go facial. its been so long since i went. i think i still have a couple more sessions with bella....but i hate going there....always ask me to buy this buy that. sign up for this and that... then they criticise your face like mad...and they will start nagging at you for not coming in months.....
anyway, it seems like im whinning alot in this entry. PMS okies? darn.